During the month of October 2020 was training camp, and this is where God had finally shown me some form of revelation concerning this wall that he had shown me in the dream and also the season in my life that i was now experiencing and had been for the last 7 months without any context. So going in to training camp i was really nervous about going back into a community of people. I had isolated myself and in doing that i got to internalize, process, and deal with everything by myself and within. I did not have to trust anybody, I didn’t have to be vulnerable with anybody, I didn’t have to allow myself to be open and share my thoughts and emotions with people, nor did I have to deal with peoples opinions of me. So because i was used to doing these things I didn’t feel as if i needed to be around people and that all i needed was God. So when God asked me to go on the world race i was absolutely frightened. So during camp as i settled in and worked through these problems and fears of community God truly began to show just how much i was actually missing in community and all the benefits of having brothers and sisters of Christ walk along side of you as we walk this walk together. One day during the week of training camp we were in the middle of worship and one of mentors who happens to be full of the spirit prayed over me for me to have visions and dreams in the likeness of Daniel and in that instant God literally took me into vision like state and replayed the exact same dream I had about the wall and explained to me what this wall meant. He spoke to me and told me that my fear of community, rejection, ridicule and judgment was hindering my growth, limiting my experience of Him, and stopping me from becoming all that He had for me to become and was what this was the representation of the wall in the dream that was stopping me from breaking through and smashing all the remaining walls. So community was what i thought this wall meant and by the end of camp and as i prepared for launch i was really working with God to help me tear down these walls that i had threw up around my life and begin to really embrace this whole community thing. So as God has helped me through these things my 3 months on the race and is also still growing me in God has truly shown me the beauty and strength that are in the body of Christ and how we grow better and more efficiently together within Him. As i began to grasp this, and as i began to think i was tearing down this wall that was stopping me from being everything He said I would become he showed me that this was just one corner to a wall that contained 4 corners! Each corner representing something different that was holding me back and keeping this wall in my dream erect and unmovable. I can’t wait to share those things with you on my next blog post!
