The root of the problem Pt.5 How the corners of the walls are connected

So when God showed me these things, He showed me how toxic and cancerous each one of these things have been and will continue to be in my walk with Him  . Then he went on to show me how they were all woven into one another! So I’m going to try to explain this the best i can! So he called these 4 things the 4 corners of the wall, each problem representing a corner of the wall that was the strength of this wall. As he explained these things to me he went from corner to corner drawing a line from one to the next connecting them all. The first one being Community, he pointed out the because of my fear of letting people in, being vulnerable, and not wanting to trust people isolated me and kept me away from the very thing that was going to help me grow, find strength, and away from those that could Help me more like Him in every aspect of my life. Literally without community i would still probably trying to figure out what this wall meant. If it wasn’t for community i wild have never got called out to be better. The body builds one another up, it sharpens itself, and if you separate yourself from it your growth will not be as efficient and makes you more susceptible to attacks and lies from the enemy. The next corner was, people pleasing, this one was huge for me Because this is the one my brother Jacken pointed out in me and explained to me of how it was not Christ like but rather can hinder Gods glory. I initially believed if i could make people happy i was serving them well, but as God spoke to me He showed me that this was not true and actually would sometimes cause me not to do as He asked, hinder what He was wanting to do in peoples lives because i was afraid of hurting peoples feelings rather it was the truth or not. I didn’t want to cause conflicts in certain relationships or cause discomfort because I didn’t want to be hated by him i was wanting to please. Which is not love at all, at the end of the day if your not willing to say some hard things that people may not want to hear or speak the truth that God has given you to speak that could save them then your part of the problem and not helping the problem. when speaking the truth there will always be conflict and you have to love God and His truth more than peoples feelings if it could save them. To be used by God you have to be willing to please God rather than man at all cost. Even if it means losing a relationship or friend. That is connected to the community corner because of the fact that I feared being rejected and judged. If you strive to be approved of men then you will die by there disapproval. So because i liked to people please it also kept from the very thing on earth apart from God that could help me. Which actually leads me to the 3rd corner of this wall which is “the disapproval of men thinking that it was also tied to Gods disapproval” this one is also a huge one because it ties right in with the 2 previous corners. when i get judged, rejected or slandered by people, Or when i get deemed to much or too little by people. or when people are displeased with what i say and have strong opinions of me or my words i tend to tie there disapproval as if God thought the same about me and that is hardly ever the case. My biggest problem is God will speak truth over me and tell me what He thinks of me but as soon as someone comes in telling me what “is not’ i would forget everything God has said and believe the flawed human over the Perfect God which be a huge problem when it comes to the 4th problem which is “Walking in confidence, boldness and authority.” Its extremely hard to do this if you are always fearing what man might say or being worried about offending someone. If your always casting to the side what God speaks to which is absolute truth. Or when your dating to the side everything Christ died to make you you can and will seriously hinder yourself from being everything God has made you to do to glorify Him. It takes all of those things to be used by God because we are in a battle and if you walk onto the battle field without being confident in who God has called you to be, without being bold enough to rock the boat and bring light into a dark situation, or without walking in the authority of being a chosen child of God made in his image and sitting in the heavenly place with Christ inhabiting His very presence within you. Then you will be on the sidelines while the real warriors take the world by storm. So when he told me these things i was rocked, and i repented of these things and asked Him to show me how to begin tearing down this wall that i now understood was killing my walk with God. this was all 2 weeks before training/debrief so God certainly had a plan going forward for these thing as i would Learn that my whole year would be shaped around bursting through this wall! Next we’ll dive into how this process has looked up until now!